Pastor's Weekly Musing

Hey everyone!

One of the things that scared me the most about getting married was the fact that Portia would know everything about me. I worked hard at curating an image with her: I wanted her to be impressed by me, to respect me, to think highly of me. I wanted her to see me as always strong, always smart, always ready to take on life, to be the hero, the leader, the man.

But marriage means getting close -- really close. And being close meant she'd see my ugly, my failure, my weakness, all of it. How can you curate an image with someone that you share a bathroom with? We slept in the same bed, we saw each other in the morning (my personal worst moment), we were together during our most exhausted and weakest points of the day.

When we were dating, she would only see me when I had a haircut, a shave, a shower, a fresh coat of Old Spice, my best clothes on, a fresh piece of gum in my mouth, and after hitting up the ATM for cash. I was at my best.

But close intimacy means that you can no longer keep that up. In fact, intimacy means you invite someone into your weird little world, and you allow them to see everything about you, including your morning breath, your ugly sweat-pants, your bed head, and without a shave in five days. We allow them to see us at our worst.

It's kinda scary.

It reminds me of my relationship with God, except God doesn't need to be allowed into our worlds in order to know about us: He already knows. Accepting the truth that God knows everything in your life can either be very disturbing or very comforting. It depends on your relationship with him and whether or not you're trying to fool him.

Have you been acting as if God were totally unaware of your life in any of these five areas?

1- God knows your faults and failures, but He still loves you unconditionally. 2- God knows your feelings and frustrations, and He sees your hurt more than anyone else can. 3- God knows your future, so He can tell you what you need to know. 4- God knows your fears, and He wants you to hand your worries over to Him. 5- God knows your faithfulness, because He sees every good thing you do.

The fact that God knows everything is a tremendous motivator for me to live a godly life. I realize that nothing in my life is done in secret, nothing I face will hinder His ability to help me, nothing that is to come will catch Him by surprise, nothing I fear will be too big for His strength, and nothing I do in His name is ever done in vain.

We get much more than a new roommate with the Lord. We get someone who knows absolutely everything about us -- and loves us just the same!


Pastor Ronnie